Saturday, July 19, 2008

Every ounce of sunshine. . .


Ok, so sometimes I"m a pessimist. I don't always look at the bright side of things. My husband says it's my way of coping. He's right. When I really want something to happen  it's easier for me to say "oh it's soooo far away!" "or it's just not going to happen" then I will be less hurt if it doesn't happen. I guess it's my way of guarding my heart. Well as I"ve shared adopting a babyfeels soooo far away to me right now and sometimes I 'm not the most optimistic about the whole situation. Well, I want you to know that yesterday was a day of healing  for me.  

We went to the lake yesterday with some friends. It was  sort of a last minute trip. It was exceptionally wonderful. I felt like with every once of sunshine I soaked up, God was healing my broken heart. It was so fun watching the kids fish and have fun together. It was if all was exactly right in the world and I could stop worrying about what happens next. This morning I had wonderful quiet time with God and so for today I have surrendered it all to him truly! I can't say what tomorrow or the next day will bring but for today and yesterday, I am thankful I serve a living God who knows me and knows my situation. Who holds today in his hand and really that's all that matters. 


2 comments:

Mama Misty said...

Yay a day at the lake! Good for you to have a time to ENJOY the family that you have instead of worrying about the next member (believe me I've been there too!!) God is just sooo good, isn't he?? Talk to you soon!!

gtunheim said...

Hi Valerie,
I talked with Stacy last week and had asked about you and the baby. I was so sorry to hear about your set back....and that is exactly what it is. I have no doubt that you will get that baby that is meant for you and your family. It will happen. Patience....ya, that is the hard part. Believe me...

You will be in my thoughts and prayers....I miss you:)

Love,
GayeLynn