Ok, so sometimes I"m a pessimist. I don't always look at the bright side of things. My husband says it's my way of coping. He's right. When I really want something to happen it's easier for me to say "oh it's soooo far away!" "or it's just not going to happen" then I will be less hurt if it doesn't happen. I guess it's my way of guarding my heart. Well as I"ve shared adopting a babyfeels soooo far away to me right now and sometimes I 'm not the most optimistic about the whole situation. Well, I want you to know that yesterday was a day of healing for me.
We went to the lake yesterday with some friends. It was sort of a last minute trip. It was exceptionally wonderful. I felt like with every once of sunshine I soaked up, God was healing my broken heart. It was so fun watching the kids fish and have fun together. It was if all was exactly right in the world and I could stop worrying about what happens next. This morning I had wonderful quiet time with God and so for today I have surrendered it all to him truly! I can't say what tomorrow or the next day will bring but for today and yesterday, I am thankful I serve a living God who knows me and knows my situation. Who holds today in his hand and really that's all that matters.